Scythe lizard;

So hey, hi there. I hope you're doing okay right now, but I'm sure not. The COVID-19 pandemic has been kicking my mental health's ass. One of the things I'm struggling with the most is persistent intrusive thoughts about how I don't "deserve" this "time off"-- as if I'm taking a vacation and not basically self-furloughed from my job to protect the health of my fiancee-- because I'm not getting "enough" done.

There are a lot of reasons that this kind of negative self-talk is totally off-base and I could spend a ton time tackling how capitalism has Fucked Me Up Big Time. Sometimes, that's the most helpful way to combat thinking like this.

But sometimes, the most helpful way to shut down that nasty voice in my head is by showing it everything I'm finishing even while my brain is convinced I'm doing nothing. So what follows is a list of all the creative things and projects that I have been able to finish in spite of my depression during my COVID quarantine. I'll try to keep it up date!

So, since March 23rd, when I officially stopped going into work, I've:
( Read more... )

On April 14th I did a photoshoot of all the crested geckos in our collection at the time. This is the result.

( Here there be cresties! )

Title: Mercenary Medicine
Fandom: Transformers: Prime
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Knock Out is a freelance medic-- he works alone and he likes it that way. But when he finds a corpse that isn't as dead as it ought to be at the bottom of a pile of bodies, it puts his entire careful operation at risk.
Chapter: 01 || 02 || 03 || 04 || 05 || 06 || 07 || 08 || 09 || 10 || 11 || 12 || 13 || 14 || 15
Notes: Set way before what we see in the show and nowhere near Earth. Contains copious amounts of worldbuilding and headcanon. Thank you to my VIP screeners beta-readers, and special thanks to Dirge for letting me bounce ideas off her and helping keep my Breakdown in line. Mercenary Medicine wouldn’t be the story it is today without you, Dirge.



MAJOR MAJOR CONTENT WARNING THIS CHAPTER FOR DISCUSSION OF SUICIDE-- including suicidal ideation and an indirect suicide attempt. ADDITIONAL CONTENT WARNING for violence and physical intimidation.



( When Knock Out returned to the cargo bay the next day, Breakdown was already present and waiting for him. )

Title: Informal
Fandoms: Transformers: Rescue Bots, Transformers: Prime
Rating: PG-13 I guess??
Summary: A routine maintenance appointment for Blades with Rescue Force Sigma-17's new attending physician leads to a frank conversation about said physician's past.
One shot; complete
Notes/warnings: Post RB season one and TFP Preds Rising crossover AU where Knock Out has ditched Cybertron and returned to Earth. Imagine his surprise when he realized the Autobots had left a whole team of fellow 'Bots behind when they pulled out-- and imagine his further surprise when they and their human family were willing to give him sanctuary on their island.

CONTENT WARNING for allegorical transphobia, as well as discussion of institutionalized class- and caste-based oppression.


( Read more... )

Title: Mercenary Medicine
Fandom: Transformers: Prime
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Knock Out is a freelance medic-- he works alone and he likes it that way. But when he finds a corpse that isn't as dead as it ought to be at the bottom of a pile of bodies, it puts his entire careful operation at risk.
Chapter: 01 || 02 || 03 || 04 || 05 || 06 || 07 || 08 || 09 || 10 || 11 || 12 || 13 || 14 || 15
Notes: Set way before what we see in the show and nowhere near Earth. Contains copious amounts of worldbuilding and headcanon. Thank you to my VIP screeners beta-readers, and special thanks to Dirge for letting me bounce ideas off her and helping keep my Breakdown in line. Mercenary Medicine wouldn’t be the story it is today without you, Dirge.

Please see the notes at the end of the chapter for some important stuff!


( The difference that even a few days’ worth of work had made in the state of the cargo bay was astonishing... )

Thank you for coming to have a look at our stock! Where available I provided links to the item's listing on our etsy or to a picture, but some of our items are very new and don't have a picture yet. If you'd like to see a picture of something that doesn't have an image already, please feel free to comment below (anonymous commenting IS enabled), or send us an email at jaykaybee @ comcast . net and we'll do what we can to oblige you!

JEWELRY
-Energon goody earrings: standard pink, TFP blue, synth-en green, and dark-en purple
-Casseticon earrings: Laserbeak, Ravage, Rumble, Frenzy, mix-n-match
-TF faction badge earrings: Autobot, Decepticon
-Invader ZIM Irken empire badge earrings: red and purple, one and two eyes
-Invader ZIM Almighty Tallest character badge earrings: Red, Purple, mix-n-match
-Legend of Zelda badge earrings: Link with heart container, Triforce
-Dance Dance Revolution earrings:
-Zodiac badge earrings: available in all 12 signs of the zodiac in these colors
-Portal badge earrings: cake and companion cube in orange and blue
-Pokeball badge earrings: standard ball and master ball

-Innermost energon vial pendants: available in MTMTE pink, Tailgate/synth-en green, TFP blue, dark-en purple
-Soundwave and cassettes charm bracelets (featuring Laserbeak, Ravage, Rumble, and Frenzy)

PILLOWS AND PILLOWCASES
-Transformers body pillow cases (fit standard 52" body pillows): TFP Starscream, Knock Out, Optimus, G1 Starscream, Drift, G1 Arcee

-Soundwave pillow case (fits a standard bed pillow)
-Casseticon throw pillows: Ravage, Laserbeak, Frenzy, Rumble, Buzzsaw, Ratbat, SG!Ravage, Rewind

**Some of the pillows and pillowcases are going to be very limited quantity, with only one or two coming to TFCon, so if you want to ensure you're going to get the design you want, we definitely recommend a pre-order!**

FLEECE CAPS
-Invader ZIM inspired caps: Zim/custom Irken, doggie GIR, robot GIR, Tak
-Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle caps: Leonardo, Raphael, Donatello, Michelangelo
-Transformers G1 Bumblebee
-Legend of Zelda link cap: apple/forest green, black/gray
-Animal hats: Fox hat, coyote hat (with fluffy ears!)

ETCHED GLASSES
-Transformers designs: Autobot, Decepticon, Beast Wars Maximal and Predacon, TFP: Beast Hunters Predacon
-Legend of Zelda designs: Triforce and Skyward Sword design
-Reboot symbol
-One-eyed Irken symbol
-Starcraft Zerg, Protoss, and Terran symbols

All designs are etched by hand on a 16 oz drinking glass. You can see them in some of the pictures here; I don't have any better pictures of them yet, I'm afraid.

PLUSHIES
-Transformers Animated Seeker plushies: Starscream, Thundercracker, Skywarp, Sunstorm, Ramjet, Dirge, Thrust, Slipstream

**There will be ONLY ONE PLUSH of each character available at TFCon. If you want to be sure you get the one you want, pre-order now!**


REMINDER that many of our items are going to be available only in limited quantities at TFCon, and that much of the non-Transformers merchandise isn't going to be available at all. If you see anything here that you don't think you can live without, pre-ordering it with us is the only way to 100% guarantee you'll get it.

If you want to place a pre-order, feel free to comment here, email us at jaykaybee @ comcast . net, or message us on Tumblr!

So this November, I was incredibly lucky to be selected as one of the winners of Cally Karishokka's puggle commission lottery. I was super excited to be able to bring more Puggleformers into my life, especially since they could be whoever I wanted!!

But even more excited than me was Sunstorm, the Puggleformer hatchling I brought home from Botcon. She's* spent the past few days trekking all over the house, visiting our other Puggleformers and making sure everyone knew exactly what she was so pleased about.

Well, yesterday I came home from some errands to find that she'd made it out to the mailbox before me, and dragged this little prize inside.


( More pictures inside! )

All Puggleformers are made by the Puggle Goddess herself, of course~. Her stuff is awesome and we're really lucky to have so many in the house. Thank you, Cally, I love Blackout and Scorponok so much, they're perfect!

Title: Mercenary Medicine
Fandom: Transformers: Prime
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Knock Out is a freelance medic-- he works alone and he likes it that way. But when he finds a corpse that isn't as dead as it ought to be at the bottom of a pile of bodies, it puts his entire careful operation at risk.
Chapter: 01 || 02 || 03 || 04 || 05 || 06 || 07 || 08 || 09 || 10 || 11 || 12 || 13 || 14 || 15
Notes: Set way before what we see in the show and nowhere near Earth. Contains copious amounts of worldbuilding and headcanon. Thank you to Elemental for beta-reading this for me, and special thanks to SixthClone/Dirge, without whom this story would have died miserably around chapter 4. You are my Breakdown, Dirge; I wouldn't be able to do this without you!


( Knock Out was elbow deep in a disorganized container of weapons when Vitalis warned him that Blackout was coming back online. )

I'm sorry for the delay between the last chapter and this one, and the delay to come between this and the next. I've been quite busy recently preparing convention stock, which eats severely into my writing time. Hopefully after Botcon I'll be able to make time again in my days for writing.

Speaking of, I'M GOING TO BOTCON! And if you're there too, feel free to look for me in the Dealer's Room-- I'll be behind the booth with the costume wings and the jewelry and the pillows and the Seeker t-shirts and other awesome handmade TF things.

Mention "Mercenary Medicine" and get a free pin as a thank you for reading!!

Title: Mercenary Medicine
Fandom: Transformers: Prime
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Knock Out is a freelance medic-- he works alone and he likes it that way. But when he finds a corpse that isn't as dead as it ought to be at the bottom of a pile of bodies, it puts his entire careful operation at risk.
Chapter: 01 || 02 || 03 || 04 || 05 || 06 || 07 || 08 || 09 || 10 || 11 || 12 || 13 || 14 || 15
Notes: Set way before what we see in the show and nowhere near Earth. Contains copious amounts of worldbuilding and headcanon. Thank you to Elemental for beta-reading this for me, and special thanks to SixthClone/Dirge, without whom this story would have died miserably around chapter 4. You are my Breakdown, Dirge; I wouldn't be able to do this without you!


( You missed a spot, by the way. )